Fulfilling My Purpose.....

There is a television ad running in our area. Basically it focuses on a woman who finds out she has a life-threatening illness and talks about the specialized care she receives at an area hospital. And toward the end of the spot she says something like "I am determined to fulfill my purpose in life". Now I can't seem to get that phrase out of my brain......it's on a continuous "loop".....fulfilling my purpose, fulfilling my purpose.......

And I have to wonder what is my purpose? I'm 69 so I better figure this out pretty soon. I guess I've just never thought of the big picture. I didn't have a master plan. I went to college, met Dave, got married, mothered two children, worked at a variety of part-time jobs as Dave accepted one career challenge after another. We moved around a lot so I made and re-made a house/home at each location and supported Dave's efforts as he worked hard to provide a good life for our family. I began to sell real estate full time+ when our son was a junior in high school to put both kids through college, I was in charge of our adult social connections in each of our home towns, I volunteered. 

But what was my purpose? Maybe I need to stop thinking about the big picture.....and think about the small. Our kids "turned out great" and are independent, accomplished and raising families of their own. Our four grandsons are amazing......but I had little, other than genetics, to do with that!

Somehow the word "purpose" throws me off......it seems so "important" and implies much more life-planning than I ever did.

Oh well....it's been a good life, so far. I feel like I've left the communities where we lived a little better by contributing while we were there.....made a small ripple in a big pond.

I guess I'll go watch another commercial until some other random thought becomes an ear-worm in my brain.