And then you get some crappy health news from a friend....again. And you have a family member going through a bit of a challenge. And you're wondering about another friend you haven't heard from in awhile who is also showing great courage in the face of horrible odds. And you just got an email from a casual friend who is facing surgery.
And you wonder....what can I do? What can I do when I can't "fix" it? What do I do when I wake at night and think of all of them....and worry. What do I do when there is no easy "answer" or all of the "answers" are not what you want to hear. What do I do when it's out of my control....as if I ever really had any control. What do I do when I don't believe in the power of prayer.....but do want to somehow send some positive energy flowing through the universe? What do I do when I feel like screaming every curse word I know.....but that would scare our dog.
Make some more soup and deliver it? The distances are too great. Send a thinking of you card in the real mail? I will do that but it seems insignificant. Remind myself, once again, that my aches and pains are below zero on a scale of one-to-ten....I try to do that every day!
Once again......some friends I care about, some people I love.....once again.
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